Heavy Balloon

by Autonomous Apes

supported by
Elder God.ca
Elder God.ca thumbnail
/

  • Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    Purchasable with gift card

      $7 CAD  or more

     

1.
Tunnel Vision 03:51
lyrics
buy track
Only been an hour but it felt like a lifetime A Life full of pain struggling in vain I’m scared of myself so much I paralyze I should get out of my head to catch a breath of fresh air Empty eyes follow House flies Wrong way down one-way head-on collision tunnel vision Our life is no good for television tunnel vision Have I really done everything I could? Weather affects my mood I’m tough so I deserve some tough love I’m enough, I’m enough Hopeless, restless, careless I’ll show em who they’ve lost when I find my way out It’s hot under spotlight all the time I’m drenched in sweat I must get out of my head to catch a breath of fresh air Empty eyes follow House flies Wrong way down one-way head-on collision tunnel vision Our life is no good for television tunnel vision Have I really done everything I could? Weather affects my mood I’m tough so I deserve some tough love I’m enough, I’m enough
2.
Heavy Balloon 03:04
lyrics
buy track
My mouth is full and bloody From biting my lip to hide me laughing Doing nothing is slightly heavier than doing something No, I chose nothing Heavy balloon Going higher and higher Soon it’ll cover the moon But he knows he’s a liar, liar, liar Her hand is soft and sweaty Her knuckles have turned to white But she is my gorgeous milady And I’m her distressful kite Heavy balloon Going higher and higher Soon it’ll cover the moon But he knows he’s a liar, liar, liar, liar Yeah, I’m all sick and tired He told me that I’m fired It’s time to start a riot A distressful kite Heavy balloon Going higher and higher Soon it’ll cover the moon But he knows he’s a liar, liar, liar Don’t let me slip away Don’t let me slip away Just say that I’m okay Just hold my hand, okay?
3.
Teenage Parents 04:11
lyrics
buy track
It’s so much easier to shut him up Just give him a phone and let him play Oh, he is such a pain, I just wanted to have fun I can’t do this on my own My new size Great disguise With you I feel small But I barely fit in your car Fantasize Mesmerize Don’t start crawling now When you can walk on your own The only thing that we agree on Is how much we hate each other I close my eyes and pray to be strong I see you there a single-mother My new size Great disguise With you I feel small But I barely fit in your car Fantasize Mesmerize Don’t start crawling now When you can walk on your own There is order in distress when you’re dancing in this dress There is order in distress when you’re dancing in this dress
4.
Pathetic 03:13
lyrics
buy track
Waiting for the text that says that we’re done, done Like I’m failing a test, my body screams run, run They will get rid of you. Oh, you knew, knew Quick on your knees, scream out please, please Pathetic Pathetic I pick up my phone to check on my new song Zero views, 30 listens nobody asks for interviews My dream stadium shrinks Suddenly it’s easier to take my life, mother hide the knife! Pathetic Pathetic If you try hard you can change the color of blood and a smell of a fart For all you know you’re a hidden genius For all you know they lived happily ever after until a certain end Forget good and bad all you’ve left are just news Just news
5.
Otnosheniya na Rasstoyanii 03:45
lyrics
buy track
Прошел целый год - сердце наружу Когда ещё я тебя увижу? Закрыл глаза, но я все слышу Мы оба устали, Но нити как из стали Десять часов вечера У тебя утро Для тебя я уже вчера Со страхом смотрю в завтра Так хочу тебя обнять Придётся обойтись Воздушным поцелуем на сегодня Им его не удержать Ты далеко, но я ищу тут Сквозь грохот метро и музыку пробьют И я буду рад чтоб вы не сказали Ты мне не брат, но будем друзьями Ты больна! Всюду мерещится свастика и рога Мы повсюду мама! Летом ждем на мирные острова Десять часов вечера У тебя утро Для тебя я уже вчера Со страхом смотрю в завтра Так хочу тебя обнять Придётся обойтись Воздушным поцелуем на сегодня Им его не удержать Прошел целый год - сердце наружу
6.
Home 03:50
lyrics
buy track
Army of dead should be saving themselves Under damned land no falling stars, but no shells Echoing scream brings up illicit truth Babies and fools lead the troops I’m afraid of coming home My father has gone mad He beats everybody I know he’s burying bodies in our back yard Nobody talks at the dinner table I feel land mines with my tongue Lying tongues of our grandparents Seek to destroy our fatherland Army of dead should be saving themselves Under damned land no falling stars, but no shells Echoing scream brings up illicit truth Babies and fools lead the troops I dream of speaking up But the big brother is on his side How could he be so blind? Can’t he see our mother is shaking So, I better make another lap Or just stand under this lamp As it showers me with light I’m afraid of coming home tonight Army of dead should be saving themselves Under damned land no falling stars, but no shells Echoing scream brings up illicit truth Babies and fools lead the troops
7.
My Friends 03:24
lyrics
buy track
Curly people want their hair straight Longing for the sun but it’s getting late The bill is quiet, waiting to be paid I respond well to either fear or hate Or is it just me? Call me crazy Or is it just me? My friend died before I was born But then he left this song So I will never feel alone Listening to his advise How come everyday we all dress nice But then we come back home defeated And it was never a part of our plans And then we all look so cool like it’s lame to feel needed Or is it just me? Call me crazy Or is it just me? My friend lives in Tokyo The one I’ve never known But he writes books about me He doesn’t need my name Tell me if we’re living in a lonely world How come there are people who turned love into sport I never earned no medals, never reached the highs Can someone please show me to my consolation prize Or is it just me? Call me crazy Oh, it’s so easy! My friend is the president He stayed with me when my children left I wanna die and I’ll die for him I wanna die and I’ll die for him
8.
Hollywood Love 04:02
lyrics
buy track
Do you want to work for me? On my super ambitious movie That I’ve seen in a dream I see you in my dreams too In my dreams we love each other Like those people on the screen, But in this life, you’re looking for another So, I will put us on the screen Hollywood love for a little boy in Russia Hollywood love for a lonely boy Hollywood love for a little boy in Russia A little Hollywood love “Yeah, it’s just an easy romantic drama” “If you want, I can talk to your mama” “No need to ask your boyfriend’s permission” “We’re here on a sacred artistic mission” “The stakes are high! They are gonna show it in Hollywood!” “Why don’t you try? Han Solo was played by a janitor” “Yes, I’m sure, baby you’re perfect, perfect for the role of course” “Don’t you feel this sudden force of?” Hollywood love from a little boy in Russia Hollywood love from a lonely boy My whole life I’ve been rushing somewhere I guess I was just looking for you Cameras rolling my lips touch yours I don’t care where this is going, I’ve never been so close Cameras rolling my lips touch yours I don’t care where this is going y’all dismissed, close the doors
9.
Dead to Me 04:08
lyrics
buy track
Why couldn’t you appreciate All I had to create All out, you’re not hiding What you think of me Kill me no one will see And leave my body standing still Now you won’t find a place to flee This happens quick against my will Now you are Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me There is no “make it up” So, I advise you stop I’ll be fine, thanks There are no good old days You’re not my first, maybe my last So, come on in and hurt fast It’s been a blast and what a shame That for you all it’s just a game Kill me no one will see And leave my body standing still Now you won’t find a place to flee This happens quick against my will Now you are Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Kill me no one will see And leave my body standing still Now you won’t find a place to flee This happens quick against my will Now you are Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me Dead to me
10.
Time Will Tell 02:53
lyrics
buy track
Time is killing me for all the days I sacrificed Time is healing me soon I’ll be able to close my eyes No white lies, no thank you No nice to see you too find some useful shit to do These versions of me, all had their reasons I’ve never met any of them I doubt we could be friends No longer know what is true but I’m left with a bruised neck While we go from “I hate you” to “I want you back” Fuck it I’m glad it all happened this way It makes life a little interesting anyway Just another chapter I’m gonna read back some day When I’m far away, from this fucking day Feels like I’ve been in this place forever Where forever friendships never last Girl you know, you are so fucking clever Then why am I lost in your heart - it’s too vast Fuck it I’m glad it all happened this way It makes life a little interesting anyway It’s just another chapter I’m gonna read back some day When I’m far away, from this fucking day Am I right or wrong? Time will tell Is this a good song? Time will tell But for now Fuck it Fuck it I’m glad it all happened this way It makes life a little interesting anyway It’s just another chapter I’m gonna read back some day When I’m far away, from this fucking day
11.
All the Same 02:56
lyrics
buy track
I’m just hanging in there Day by day I feel relaxed I’m leaving this race Let me sit in summer’s ray I am happy in here In my scary twisted way But please don’t scared to hold me In this way we’re all the same One day we’ll disappear And this’ what makes it real Let’s hope before we’re gone I’ll say these fucking words Please just leave me alone And please be right here by my side I’m not asking for much You just don’t understand Do I wanna live? Sure as hell don’t wanna die Do I like all colors? Or do I hate them all the same? One day we’ll disappear And this’ what makes it real Let’s hope before we’re gone I’ll say these fucking words One day we appeared It is our duty to live I know there are good days Hidden in summer’s rays

about

It's their 1 album. I was written and recorded in the time frame between Feb 24 2022 and Feb 24 2023.

credits

released February 24, 2023

Music and Lyrics: Egor Kopshar
Guitar: Egor Kopshar
Vocal: Egor Kopshar
Bass: Musa Habib
Drums: Rishabh Gulati
Mix and Master Engineer: Eternally Akki

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Autonomous Apes image

Autonomous Apes Vancouver, British Columbia

Autonomous Apes is an immigrant trio from Vancouver, BC. In our grungy sound we mix together energetic riffs with quiet and gentle melodic parts. Lyrics in our music are put to the front and often talk about inner problems that are so common among us all. In the 3 year span that the band has existed we've released 2 EPs and 1 studio LP “Heavy Balloon”. ... more

contact / help

Contact Autonomous Apes

Streaming and
Download help

Report this album or account

If you like Autonomous Apes, you may also like:

Bandcamp Daily  your guide to the world of Bandcamp

On Bandcamp Radio

Seafood Sam joins the show to discuss his newest album, " Standing On Giant Shoulders".
listen now